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I wasn't prepared for that outcome. I thought there would be confusion and lots of counting and then after an uncomfortable period of time, our side would prevail. I've gone through avoidance, numbness, weeping and deep tiredness today. I hope to be more constructive in the future. One friend said she didn't expect anyone without a penis to win. Another said you can never go wrong betting on the stupidity of Americans. That's one of my sorrows - I'm stuck here with so many fellow 'mericans who are actively malicious morons. I wanted to think there were more of us who want to take care of each other. 

I don't want to use f'book at all. What a corporate marsh. I am thrown back to my own devices here. I will dip into bluesky from time to time. That's my people and my social media platform for now.  

A friend from Kansas arrives on Friday. I want to be in better spirits by then. If not I guess we can sit on the couch and watch movies and shows and mope together. 

It's cold and raining/snowing here too. Clear weather for exercising outside would have been more to my preference. I jogged yesterday. I'm trying to self diagnose some pain around my knees. It occurs to me that my shoes may be beat. Time to try the new (used) pair I left in the garage to air out. They stank of air freshener when they arrived from the reseller. I'm having pain on the inside of the left knee especially, I assume it's caused by my hyper mobile kneecaps. I would like to have a consultation with a physical therapist. Wonder if that could be covered by insurance. 

Trying to re-read The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay by Chabon. I remember it fondly but had forgotten that it's more than 600 pages! I expect to be about halfway through before the book group convo tonight.